Jiwa kacau

Aku rse sdeyh la bila tiap kali balik mcm ni. Tiap2 hari ak akn tertunggu-tunggu 1 panggilan yg TIDAK dikendaki. Perasaan ni da jdk mcm satu rutin. Buat aku paranoid. Sampaikan, tiap kali phne bunyi, aku akn rse 1 perasaan yg sgt negatif. Marah sgt2.

Aku x tau la kenape. Hati ni mcm x rela. Bukan nye dibuat-buat. Aku bwk die klua dlm perasaan yg terpaksa. Tiap kali dia call aku rasa nak mengamuk. Ya Allah.. Rse berdosa sgt buat benda x ikhlas ni.
Tlg la ya Allah, lembutkan hati ini.. Amin..

p.s: don't use ur favorite song as ringtone if u have someone u hate frequently calling u like this. Trust me, ur favorite song could turn to be ur most hated song.

Depression

Hari nh ak rse sgt tertekan sbb kan paper QMT337 tadi. Aku rasa geram yg teramat bila teringat balik. Boleh pulak lupa formula ntok Network tu. "Tu la, berlagak. Mlm xnk tgk. PADAN MUKA." & i wish i had more time.

Org lain gembira je. Bole siap awal bagai & ckp benda tu senang. Aku rasa sedih. Xnk dengar pls.

Lps je keluar dewan periksa tadi, aku rasa sgt moody. Rasa mcm 'hilang'. Perjalanan balik rasa lg jauh dr biasa. Lps tu sampai rmh mak call tanya boleh jwb x. Aku ckp, ok je. Aku tipu. Aku x sanggup dgr suara hampa mak. Aku dah cube  berserah dgn takdir tapi kenapa aku rse susah sgt. Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan kesabaran. Amin~

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”

QMT337; DIAK (bwh PI); no. 288.

Dont mess with EGO !

We all have EGO. Why deny it.

Ok. I officially felt like shit right now.
Everyone kept toying with my ego diz whole day.
Like, WTF ?!
I held back thinking, it's ok. They're just playing. Until dat one freakin person just shoot out words which made me felt like a damn beggar.
I've already doubted myself all diz while and now u wanted lower my self-esteem even more ??
And then wat's left of me huh?
Well, THANK YOU, Thank you very much !
I'm heartsick. I cried. I hate crying.
It's too overwhelming for me to take.
Not enough with the return of the unwanted cat.
Stay the hell away !

A day out with Emak

Hari nh ak rse bahagia.

Kenapa?

Because i had EMAK all to myself. Bwahahaha..! <--evil laugh

Bestnye bole manje2 ngn mak. L.O.V.E  (X3).

       Thumbs up for our moms!!!

Ary nh sehari suntuk jln kat TIMES SQUARE.

First plan nk gy kejap je sbb nak cari beg Domo, si 'ulat taik' / 'dugong' MIMI kamilah-who's btw, dying to meet her 'domo' tomorrow.

Pastu, besela, kedai kan byk kat situ. Ever heard d term SHOP TILL U DROP? Well. We did drop but minus d shopping. Hehe.

Mak try tudung lekat. Comel!

Kedai tudung nh kdai 1st yg kami msok.
Menarik nye kdai nh sbb owner die is Chinese n she's d one showing us how to put on d tudung we're trying. It's RARE ok.

Then we're off to many other shops until we cant walk no more. (ok. still xle hafal tempat tu.)

We went for a drink at BUDDY SOY SMOOTHIES!! 

Tau Fu Far with sweetened sago

Japanese Cucumber Smoothies

*not really keen on the cucumber smoothies at 1st but after first sip...well wadaya know. Really. Never judge anything by it's name or appearance. i end up finishing d whole thing.

But then, it's time to go home.
Ak ingt kene baya byk ntok parking. Ak pown bwk la RM10 kt Autopay machine tu.
Rupa2 nye RM4.50 je. Molek le tu. Yg x molek nye, balance sume klua syiling. Haha.
Sudah. Mcm tgh collect duit menang judi plak rse nye time tu.  

Hamekaw..!! 

TADAA..beg DOMO-KUN!!  @_@ 

Reason we came d 1st place

sdeyh sbb nak kene balik esok. ;-(

~FIN~

Balik rumah lagi

Ak masih lg berkira2 nak blik ke x ary nh.

Jam kol 12 pm. Balik je la. 

Ok. Siapkan quiz, pass kat syud then chow.

First time nk blik gombak pakai redah je mcm ni. Teruja rasanya. Huhu.

***************At bandar U (12.45 pm)***************

DLM KPALE AK:
Bli tiket, tros blik.

REALITI:
 "tiket gy KL kol 3 je ad. yg ad skunk bas gy shah alam"

........

Hampa.

Kenapa jd mcm nh?? OH TIDAK 

Xkan nk tunggu sampai kol 3? Lama kowt..

Nak patah blik rumah? Xd da salam, babai sume. Xnk2.

*think,think

.........

Shah Alam....mmm...

N so i called Mak n she gave me the OK.

BOUGHT! kaching$$

23.40 sen tunai. (ok. sib baek dok gombak. jimat 2.90)

Ak pown tunggu, tunggu, n tunggu.

Mm. Gy bli air la minum lam bas. 

Bayar air. "uncle, Kosmo! satu."

"ok. nnt amik kat lua"

Siap baya ak tros gy sambung tunggu bas.

Tunggu, tunggu.....

eh jap..xd ad bli paper kan.

Lupe pulak.. Da baya kowt. Gy amik je la.

Adoyai. Ad org lak kat tempat paper tu. Kang amik kang die kte ak mncuri.

Cmne nh? cmne nh?

Ha. Idea!

Ak gy bli roti. Konon2 ak baya skali ngn paper tu. Bijak.

 Haha. Bongek.

XD

X lama ak "BERMAIN2" sendirian, bas pown sampai.

Dlm bas buat ap lg. TIDO le...Huhu.

Dan ak pown tido, bgn, tido sampai ak rasa nk termuntah.

Masa tu bas pown da sampai kat Rawang.

Xp hari nh perjalanan bas berbeza sket sbb kali nh bas menuju ke Seksyen 17 (kat mne nth tmpt tu)

Ok. Da masok pekan...kt mne nh...??

Jln depan sket...??... =__="

Omaigod. i'm LOST!

*brrrrrrr (phne bunyi)

Mak: "Kat mne da?"

Me: "Nth. K bye" 

Tu le jwpn ak tiap kali mak call. Huaaii. 

Lantak ah. Tunggu sampai bas berenti. 

Long story short, d bus eventually stop. Laa..nh rupenye Seksyen17. Pui. Cemasku sia2.

And so, Here i am. At home. Not lost. On a comfortable bed.

Ok. At least 'katil' nh x bengkok cm katil kt sne.

~FIN~

Tanya 1, sepuluh yg dapat.

Alkisah, xd ak gy kelua mkn dgn ayah, mak and si gemok gendowt.
Tgh mkn, tbe2, out of nowhere, teringat kan membe MIMI KAMILAH yg die dok chat kat fb.
Kwn die tu skunk kat ATMA (akademi tentera..something..)
Ary tu, kami ad ckp pasal komando or KGK (kump gerak khas).
Sbb kan curious, ak tnye la ayah,
   
       "ayah, ayah, ap beza tentera ngn komando?"


Nak tau ap jdk lps tu? Haa..ayah jwb la soalan tu. SATU, Satu..SEBIJIK, Sebijik.. die jwb. Dari A-Z. Hambik kau. KAHKAH. Bole bwt buku la kre nye dr jawapan ayah tu.


Situasi nh, bwt ak teringat zmn skola dlu.
Ak ni xla 'CERGAS' mne. 
Kalau xtau nk jwb soalan latihan (slalu math), ak gy tnye sape2.
First, KAKAK. 

       "Akak, cne nk bwt soalan nh?"


Sbb kan si gemok nh mls gler, die ckp xtau. Nth ye ke x tu. PUi..
Ok. NEXT. Gy cari MAK.
Eventhough ak da tau mak akn ckp xtau, ak pergi jugak kat die. Apsal? Nth. Ak pown xtau.
So, last, last, ak gy cri AYAH..
Ye. Ayah plihan terakhir. Kenapa? Nh sbb nye.


      Aku : ayah, cne nak bwt soalan Pythagoras theorem nh. adik xtau la.
      Ayah :  (ayah explain) opposite kali hypothenus equal to.. bla..bla..
      Aku : ouh. (fhm.. ak tulis jwpn)
      Ayah : (ayah sambung..) mcm nh, mcm tu..bla, bla, SEJARAH phytagoras theorem..bla, bla..
      Aku : ooOOoo.. (angguk2 konon fhm)


Ak tahan dgr cerita ayah tu walaupun makin lama ak makin LOST sbb kalau ak x dgr, ak tkowt die tersinggung pulak. 
Ayah, ayah..




SARANGHAE OMMA, APPA!! <3 <3 <3 

Aku x reti menolak!

Ok. Cuti extra sebelum weekend. Happy. NOT!

Why?

It's because of that one phone call in the morning, that annoying call that plans everything i'll do that day.

Secara harfiahnya, aku x ada masalah nak bgn pagi. 

That's really not the problem.

Nak suruh aku drive mkn? 

X apa la. X kisah. MKN. Siapa x suka. Org belanja pula tu.

Yg buat ak rasa BERAT sgt nak keluar is the "UNEXPECTED DESTINATION" afterwards.

I mean, WTH. 

Tadi ckp nk pg mkn je. Or on different meetings, nak bawa nenek pg klinik. (tu je alasan dia)

Then, dah sampai destinasi, suka-suki je nak atur nak pg mana & mana.

Yg buat aku rasa BENGANG is cara dia ajak tu (mcm mengarah org). Mcm dia boss aku. Hello, u're my grandfather. Can't u act like one? 

Asyik nak pg bank je. Suka sgt ke pg sana?

Ia terlalu menjengkelkan & aku rasa yg benda ni jd x ikhlas sbb buat dlm keadaan terpaksa & marah.

Ajak la aku pg Carrefour ke. Best la sikit.

Dulu x mcm ni tau. 

We can all sit down & LOL together back then (ok. selalu dia x gelak pun. kami je gelak mcm sakai), lepak sesama ngn sepupu & bebapa & ibu-ibu kami.

It WAS fun.

Until money became too OVERPOWERING & ruin all that.

*Tadi aku cari org nak mengadu tapi phne mcm sakai x blh message.