Early Bird

Skunk nh...ak spatotnye otw ke ofis. Tetapi, due to a circumstances (pieja xde nk hantar ak..) , ak sampai sgt awal ke ofis hari ini. Yes. I'm currently at the office as u read. Ini sepatutnye da masuk berita muka dpn nh.

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Rancangan asal, nak naek tren. Kononnye...hehe. Ttp after playing psychology on dad, die pown decide nk hantar ak. Yea me!
Ok, pasni nk decide cne nak balik. Hmm..kene call kakak la nnt. It's a "good thing" i forgot my phone. <-- S*** nobody says @_@
Mne Norus nh?

Enjoying life

OK. It's been 8 days since i got back from d XML course and 'home-bounded' myself.
People say u might go cuckoo not going out for sometime n i'm trying to put the theory to the test.
It's fun really. I get to watch TV, sleep and eat all i want (like there's any food). N nobody wouldn't give a damn - except 'someone'. SUFFER, SUFFER, Suffer the waiting n longing. Huwahahaha.
I would usually sleep at min 4 in the morning and wake up no later than 3 p.m (one of the bad habit i developed).
Watched "The Da Vinci Code" finally and reruns of "Pride & Prejudice". Looveed it.
What else..
had myself some nice food i missed while in Perak eg: refreshing banana + chocolate smoothies with pearl from Each A Cup, Horlicks McFlurry and Chicken Foldover from McD and Subway sandwich.
Yeah, i've also develop another habit of drooling over those korean boybands. My inferiority complex.

Barbie UNO

Our newest addiction..BARBIE UNO.
Yeah, it's UNO. With BARBIE pictures on it. Sgt x macho.

Barbiiiiiiiiiiiieee....

We're so addicted that we sacrificed our usual afternoon nap time with a game of UNO. It's crazy!
And u would think dat it was going to be over, soon after someone said...UNO!
Well u're wrong. It would drag on until we actually gave up and raise the WHITE FLAG.
It's a phase we're going thru..i hope.



Nway, the XML classes r so far so good except the presentation we had on Monday. Dafuk!
Why, why won't u (sir) let us waste our lives playing and not give a damn. (*___*)

Takut

I've been conflicting with my conscience lately. A lot. I'm scared. I'm scared that the moment that I come to my senses, it'll all be too late. Photographed memory now scares me than what it was before. I'm scared for my mom too. I couldn't blame the lack of guidance I never had. I'm a grownup now. It's now my own responsibility. Everything I do is all on me. Not my parents nor anyone else. I know that I should act on it NOW but why haven't I? Dear Allah, bless me with your guidance and blessings. Amin.

MDeC continued..

Day 3rd, 4/4/12
  Pagi, we learned how to prepare ur presentation. What to do and what not. Die lps kami awal. Dlm kol 11.45 cmtu kot ntok touch up presentation kami.
Ptg came and it's presentation time! Everyone did ok. So, this is what i've learned, always practice and timed ur presentation beforehand. Ak x sempat nak habiskan isi2 ak yg ohsem mse presentation. Both of them. Terkilan btol. Argh. Benci, benci. :((

Day 4th, 3/4/12
  Siang tadi kami pergi INTERVIEW! I suck! (ak neves sbb ak org 1st). Interviewer: Pn Ana and partner in crime, En Hanafy. I really, really admired both of them, they way they are with us. They can connect with us easily. BTW, interview ni sesi ptg. Pagi tu kami belajar 'etiquette'. Dia tunjuk the proper way to pakai baju, mkn rasmi etc. And mse kritik pakaian, kat ak die ckp, "Go learn from your mom". And i was like, "mm..Ok" (no argue).
This is because, mak is the best and envied and awed when it comes to dressing up for work. I approve of this. Bila jln sbelah mak in her 'work mode', ak mcm bkn anak die. With my selipar jamban. Selekeh. Oups. 


Menjelang esok pagi, masuklah 5 hari kami bersama Pn Ana dan En Hanafy dlm kls motivasi mereka before we part ways. So sad.
And then they're off to KL for another session with some other people.

MDeC

3/4/2012
It's come to the 2nd day for the MDeC course.

Today, we showed off our creativity challenging Mr Edward de Bono's theory (on how our thoughts are represented by 5 different colors).

We've made head gears based on our OWN thoughts.

Yeah, hat making career? NOT for me. Why, a big, ugly and stupid cap.

I've even put it to test in the rain. F.A.I.L ! 

Ok. We're to do a presentation tomorrow.

My title: 

  >>3mins talks about Myself (i'm sick of myself)

                                 and..

  >>5mins on Job option in Penang or Singapore.

Wwhat am i going to talk about that long. 

21 yrs of living isnt much to talk about you know.

I've got a feeling that it will be a long day tomorrow.

**Wadaya know, the motivator, Pn Ana used to work with my dad a few years back (when he's still in Kompleks Antarabangsa). Of all the places, UiTM Seri Iskandar turn out to be our meeting point. It's Fated. Allah is Great.

Blue Tuesday (idea shoot)

Dinner at Williams.

Assalamualaikum. Hello y'all!

We had a dinner at a place called William yesterday. The sign itself is unique. Imagine d Mcdonald sign painted red n placed upside down but with a William on top of it. Yeah. Unique. 

My sis n her 'bro' Joe kept saying, everything's big at William. BIG. I cant really processed the word until i see the food myself. WOW. IT IS BIG. Imagine eating from a full serving bowl n drinking a full jug of drinks on ur own. We had a hard time finishing things. N the laughing n rolling didnt help either. Haha. Wonderful times.

Jiwa kacau

Aku rse sdeyh la bila tiap kali balik mcm ni. Tiap2 hari ak akn tertunggu-tunggu 1 panggilan yg TIDAK dikendaki. Perasaan ni da jdk mcm satu rutin. Buat aku paranoid. Sampaikan, tiap kali phne bunyi, aku akn rse 1 perasaan yg sgt negatif. Marah sgt2.

Aku x tau la kenape. Hati ni mcm x rela. Bukan nye dibuat-buat. Aku bwk die klua dlm perasaan yg terpaksa. Tiap kali dia call aku rasa nak mengamuk. Ya Allah.. Rse berdosa sgt buat benda x ikhlas ni.
Tlg la ya Allah, lembutkan hati ini.. Amin..

p.s: don't use ur favorite song as ringtone if u have someone u hate frequently calling u like this. Trust me, ur favorite song could turn to be ur most hated song.

Depression

Hari nh ak rse sgt tertekan sbb kan paper QMT337 tadi. Aku rasa geram yg teramat bila teringat balik. Boleh pulak lupa formula ntok Network tu. "Tu la, berlagak. Mlm xnk tgk. PADAN MUKA." & i wish i had more time.

Org lain gembira je. Bole siap awal bagai & ckp benda tu senang. Aku rasa sedih. Xnk dengar pls.

Lps je keluar dewan periksa tadi, aku rasa sgt moody. Rasa mcm 'hilang'. Perjalanan balik rasa lg jauh dr biasa. Lps tu sampai rmh mak call tanya boleh jwb x. Aku ckp, ok je. Aku tipu. Aku x sanggup dgr suara hampa mak. Aku dah cube  berserah dgn takdir tapi kenapa aku rse susah sgt. Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan kesabaran. Amin~

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”

QMT337; DIAK (bwh PI); no. 288.

Dont mess with EGO !

We all have EGO. Why deny it.

Ok. I officially felt like shit right now.
Everyone kept toying with my ego diz whole day.
Like, WTF ?!
I held back thinking, it's ok. They're just playing. Until dat one freakin person just shoot out words which made me felt like a damn beggar.
I've already doubted myself all diz while and now u wanted lower my self-esteem even more ??
And then wat's left of me huh?
Well, THANK YOU, Thank you very much !
I'm heartsick. I cried. I hate crying.
It's too overwhelming for me to take.
Not enough with the return of the unwanted cat.
Stay the hell away !

A day out with Emak

Hari nh ak rse bahagia.

Kenapa?

Because i had EMAK all to myself. Bwahahaha..! <--evil laugh

Bestnye bole manje2 ngn mak. L.O.V.E  (X3).

       Thumbs up for our moms!!!

Ary nh sehari suntuk jln kat TIMES SQUARE.

First plan nk gy kejap je sbb nak cari beg Domo, si 'ulat taik' / 'dugong' MIMI kamilah-who's btw, dying to meet her 'domo' tomorrow.

Pastu, besela, kedai kan byk kat situ. Ever heard d term SHOP TILL U DROP? Well. We did drop but minus d shopping. Hehe.

Mak try tudung lekat. Comel!

Kedai tudung nh kdai 1st yg kami msok.
Menarik nye kdai nh sbb owner die is Chinese n she's d one showing us how to put on d tudung we're trying. It's RARE ok.

Then we're off to many other shops until we cant walk no more. (ok. still xle hafal tempat tu.)

We went for a drink at BUDDY SOY SMOOTHIES!! 

Tau Fu Far with sweetened sago

Japanese Cucumber Smoothies

*not really keen on the cucumber smoothies at 1st but after first sip...well wadaya know. Really. Never judge anything by it's name or appearance. i end up finishing d whole thing.

But then, it's time to go home.
Ak ingt kene baya byk ntok parking. Ak pown bwk la RM10 kt Autopay machine tu.
Rupa2 nye RM4.50 je. Molek le tu. Yg x molek nye, balance sume klua syiling. Haha.
Sudah. Mcm tgh collect duit menang judi plak rse nye time tu.  

Hamekaw..!! 

TADAA..beg DOMO-KUN!!  @_@ 

Reason we came d 1st place

sdeyh sbb nak kene balik esok. ;-(

~FIN~

Balik rumah lagi

Ak masih lg berkira2 nak blik ke x ary nh.

Jam kol 12 pm. Balik je la. 

Ok. Siapkan quiz, pass kat syud then chow.

First time nk blik gombak pakai redah je mcm ni. Teruja rasanya. Huhu.

***************At bandar U (12.45 pm)***************

DLM KPALE AK:
Bli tiket, tros blik.

REALITI:
 "tiket gy KL kol 3 je ad. yg ad skunk bas gy shah alam"

........

Hampa.

Kenapa jd mcm nh?? OH TIDAK 

Xkan nk tunggu sampai kol 3? Lama kowt..

Nak patah blik rumah? Xd da salam, babai sume. Xnk2.

*think,think

.........

Shah Alam....mmm...

N so i called Mak n she gave me the OK.

BOUGHT! kaching$$

23.40 sen tunai. (ok. sib baek dok gombak. jimat 2.90)

Ak pown tunggu, tunggu, n tunggu.

Mm. Gy bli air la minum lam bas. 

Bayar air. "uncle, Kosmo! satu."

"ok. nnt amik kat lua"

Siap baya ak tros gy sambung tunggu bas.

Tunggu, tunggu.....

eh jap..xd ad bli paper kan.

Lupe pulak.. Da baya kowt. Gy amik je la.

Adoyai. Ad org lak kat tempat paper tu. Kang amik kang die kte ak mncuri.

Cmne nh? cmne nh?

Ha. Idea!

Ak gy bli roti. Konon2 ak baya skali ngn paper tu. Bijak.

 Haha. Bongek.

XD

X lama ak "BERMAIN2" sendirian, bas pown sampai.

Dlm bas buat ap lg. TIDO le...Huhu.

Dan ak pown tido, bgn, tido sampai ak rasa nk termuntah.

Masa tu bas pown da sampai kat Rawang.

Xp hari nh perjalanan bas berbeza sket sbb kali nh bas menuju ke Seksyen 17 (kat mne nth tmpt tu)

Ok. Da masok pekan...kt mne nh...??

Jln depan sket...??... =__="

Omaigod. i'm LOST!

*brrrrrrr (phne bunyi)

Mak: "Kat mne da?"

Me: "Nth. K bye" 

Tu le jwpn ak tiap kali mak call. Huaaii. 

Lantak ah. Tunggu sampai bas berenti. 

Long story short, d bus eventually stop. Laa..nh rupenye Seksyen17. Pui. Cemasku sia2.

And so, Here i am. At home. Not lost. On a comfortable bed.

Ok. At least 'katil' nh x bengkok cm katil kt sne.

~FIN~

Tanya 1, sepuluh yg dapat.

Alkisah, xd ak gy kelua mkn dgn ayah, mak and si gemok gendowt.
Tgh mkn, tbe2, out of nowhere, teringat kan membe MIMI KAMILAH yg die dok chat kat fb.
Kwn die tu skunk kat ATMA (akademi tentera..something..)
Ary tu, kami ad ckp pasal komando or KGK (kump gerak khas).
Sbb kan curious, ak tnye la ayah,
   
       "ayah, ayah, ap beza tentera ngn komando?"


Nak tau ap jdk lps tu? Haa..ayah jwb la soalan tu. SATU, Satu..SEBIJIK, Sebijik.. die jwb. Dari A-Z. Hambik kau. KAHKAH. Bole bwt buku la kre nye dr jawapan ayah tu.


Situasi nh, bwt ak teringat zmn skola dlu.
Ak ni xla 'CERGAS' mne. 
Kalau xtau nk jwb soalan latihan (slalu math), ak gy tnye sape2.
First, KAKAK. 

       "Akak, cne nk bwt soalan nh?"


Sbb kan si gemok nh mls gler, die ckp xtau. Nth ye ke x tu. PUi..
Ok. NEXT. Gy cari MAK.
Eventhough ak da tau mak akn ckp xtau, ak pergi jugak kat die. Apsal? Nth. Ak pown xtau.
So, last, last, ak gy cri AYAH..
Ye. Ayah plihan terakhir. Kenapa? Nh sbb nye.


      Aku : ayah, cne nak bwt soalan Pythagoras theorem nh. adik xtau la.
      Ayah :  (ayah explain) opposite kali hypothenus equal to.. bla..bla..
      Aku : ouh. (fhm.. ak tulis jwpn)
      Ayah : (ayah sambung..) mcm nh, mcm tu..bla, bla, SEJARAH phytagoras theorem..bla, bla..
      Aku : ooOOoo.. (angguk2 konon fhm)


Ak tahan dgr cerita ayah tu walaupun makin lama ak makin LOST sbb kalau ak x dgr, ak tkowt die tersinggung pulak. 
Ayah, ayah..




SARANGHAE OMMA, APPA!! <3 <3 <3 

Aku x reti menolak!

Ok. Cuti extra sebelum weekend. Happy. NOT!

Why?

It's because of that one phone call in the morning, that annoying call that plans everything i'll do that day.

Secara harfiahnya, aku x ada masalah nak bgn pagi. 

That's really not the problem.

Nak suruh aku drive mkn? 

X apa la. X kisah. MKN. Siapa x suka. Org belanja pula tu.

Yg buat ak rasa BERAT sgt nak keluar is the "UNEXPECTED DESTINATION" afterwards.

I mean, WTH. 

Tadi ckp nk pg mkn je. Or on different meetings, nak bawa nenek pg klinik. (tu je alasan dia)

Then, dah sampai destinasi, suka-suki je nak atur nak pg mana & mana.

Yg buat aku rasa BENGANG is cara dia ajak tu (mcm mengarah org). Mcm dia boss aku. Hello, u're my grandfather. Can't u act like one? 

Asyik nak pg bank je. Suka sgt ke pg sana?

Ia terlalu menjengkelkan & aku rasa yg benda ni jd x ikhlas sbb buat dlm keadaan terpaksa & marah.

Ajak la aku pg Carrefour ke. Best la sikit.

Dulu x mcm ni tau. 

We can all sit down & LOL together back then (ok. selalu dia x gelak pun. kami je gelak mcm sakai), lepak sesama ngn sepupu & bebapa & ibu-ibu kami.

It WAS fun.

Until money became too OVERPOWERING & ruin all that.

*Tadi aku cari org nak mengadu tapi phne mcm sakai x blh message. 

Tak sakit ke tak nangis?

Suatu ptg yg damai, ketika ak sdg membuka langkah utk masak bersama cik pipah,
kudengar suara dr jauh memanggilku. 


       "nana, nana, nana...." 


ak befikir, "ah, monyetku. apakah agaknya berita yg ingin dsampaikan.."


ketika di dapur, inilah soalan yg diajukan pdku;


       "nana, mimi tanya, x sakit ke x nanges?"


pelik bukan soalan ini? mimi yg tnya pulak 2. hmm.. (kalau piqa tnye ak x pelik la sbb die suke tnye soalan2 pelik)
ok. bg merungkai kekeliruan di hati, ak pun berhenti dan pergi sdiri pd mimi. 


      "mimi, kenapa ko tanya soalan mcm 2? ap maksud ko?"


mimi gelak sdikit kemudian menjelaskan padaku. (btw, i'd like to apologize beforehand sbb ak x ingt cerita pjg cmne. memori ak terok)


      "x. xd ak tnya piqa, ko kalo gelak mesti balance dgn nanges kan? siang ko gelak, mlm ko nanges." (and ak x ingat sbb ap timbulnya statement nh..)


lps tu munyet..oups..i mean piqa jwb,


     "haah. xp nana x pun. die gelak byk xp ak x penah tgk die nanges" (die ckp cmni lbeyh kurang)
Then mimi ckp,
     
     "NANA X SAKIT KE X NANGIS?"



Ak tergelak kecil. x ku sangka perkara sebegini menjadi tanda tanya kpd kwn2 ku. 


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Terngiang-ngiang soalan tu dlm kepala ak sampai skunk.


Hmm..
Bkn nye ak x pernah menangis. Dulu mse kecik, kalo ad pertandingan menangis, ak rse ak la ratu.(piqa pun kalah tau x) Kememeh nenek ak ckp. Ye. Sgt terok. 
Maybe sbb da puas menangis dulu ak gelak je skunk. HAHAHAH!


Org kata, menangis bole hilangkan stres. Mungkin. Xp kalo AKU yg  menangis, lps tu ak akn rasa yg ak ni lemah. "apsal menangis. mengada la", tu yg ak fikir. So, i chose not to cry. 
Ak thn je sampai perasaan sedih tu hilang.


Xp bila ak tgk org lain pulak menangis, ak akn fikir, "x penat ke menangis? rasa sedih?". Benda ni slalu ak tanya dlm hati setiap kali kwn2 ku mengalirkan air mata.


Haih. X tahu lah. Maybe i'm insensitive. If that's the case, then, I'M SORRY FOR MY INSENSITIVITY GUYS. REALLY. I AM.
What do you think..?


Xp, kalo suatu hari nnt ak menangis, jgn terkejut pulak.





peace out! ^_^


*Ak nak jdk mcm NO EUN SOL dlm "Protect The Boss". Hwaiting!

Berus sabut khidmat

Dgn kuasa MISS GOODMAID (actually ak guna dynamo je) & bantuan berus sabut khidmat ak berjaya menyental kotoran, kotoran degil di bilik air. HAHHA! (satisfied nye)

Hmm, kalau ikutkan hati mmg mls sbb naturally aku mmg seorang yg mls. 

Hbs tu dah lama aku tunggu org lain buat tapi mcm tu juga so, aku pun kumpulkan kudrat buat juga.

X apa la.. Bilik air tu aku juga yg pakai kan? (pujuk diri)

Kalau dulu kat rumah kerja2 mencuci mmg kerja aku pun. X pun, mak yg buat. (selalu mmg kerja aku buat yg heavy duty. badang kan.. hehe) 

Aku la harapan nusa dan bangsa kat rumah tu. cheh.. (tu pun sbb dah kena bebel byk kali baru gerak).

Kalau mak dtg rumah sewa & tgk bilik air, mmg kena bebel la lps tu. 

Then, aku akan selalu ckp mcm ni, "mak, saya ni rabun. kalau masuk bilik air selalu x pakai spek mata so bila saya tgk sekeliling saya tgk ok je bilik tu" 

Then, mak aku akan diam x cakap apa2 da. eh..nope. dia bebel pasal benda lain pulak. hehe.

Mcm tu la mak. nak kata apa lagi. they always want the best for us. I LOVE U MOM... 

& of course, DAD TOO..

*jari jemariku kecut-kecit lps keluar bilik air. like pickle u know?? don't know. ok. forget it.